I am restarting this blog because of COVID19. I didn’t have it but started quarantining in mid-March like most people.
But even though parts of my state are re-opened along with some businesses, I still remain at home most of the time.
I am on another break from my MSW program which I did start, but needed to take some time off for some family situations before the pandemic.
During the first few weeks of the pandemic, I tried hard to remain in my class since it was virtual but it was too hard trying to stockpile food and supplies and commit 20+hours a week to learning.
My professors are supportive and I know it was the right decision because I couldn’t force myself to learn something new and retain information.
Since I’ve entered stage 4 kidney disease I have more side effects and balance issues in particular.
I’ve fought off digestive issues and disordered eating and have been keeping a fever diary to see if there’s a pattern to many low-grade fevers I’ve been having recently.
I’ve been struggling with the quarantine but my depression is finally lifting some with the change in season and longer days. I’ve been trying to take strolls around the neighborhood when I feel up to it.
I was struggling with typing for the longest since I’ve been having some neuromuscular issues with my fingers and wrists (specialists are still trying to figure that out).
When it’s safe again I’ll meet with the Kidney transplant team to talk about evaluation since my lung team told me it’s time to get ready for evaluation testing. (My kidneys are functioning around 20 percent right now thanks to LAM & TSC.) I found this out in late February. The thought about another transplant gives me pause but I’ll always go through the process to at least see if there’s a donor match out there.
I’ve had a few friends volunteer to be tested for me which means a great deal. But with the pandemic, something tells me this will be a longer process than it would be otherwise.
I’ve had some really dark thoughts and moments, lost a few more friends (not to the virus), but even though some days I don’t feel the best, I’m still grateful to be here.
It doesn’t mean I love everything that happens with transplant and I’m still chronically ill so I have to be careful. That doesn’t bother me.
What bothers me are people who don’t give a damn about me by societal standards. There are certain people who think I’m expendable.
Well, I’ve got news for those people. I’ve hacked healthcare for about 15-20 years now, and I have no intention of stopping or dying by anyone’s hands but my Creator.
If that means staying in quarantine longer because I follow the science, then so be it.
Welcome back Nikki. The Dr’s are watching my kidney function as well. Otherwise, life is good. If you need anything, just yell. ~ D
Thanks DAP glad to be back amongst my blogger buddies. Hope you’ve been doing well.
Good to hear from you but sorry you are having these issues since your transplant. I am now in North Carolina and there are a number of people here who definitely seem to value their own enjoyment over the safety of their fellow citizens. We are in a good situation for isolating but our case numbers are definitely going to be going up significantly. I will be staying in isolation for as long as I need to. Take care.
Thanks Mary. I can only imagine what’s going on there. I’m glad you’re safe and isolating. That seems to be the best thing until science says it’s ok.