QUARANTINE & COPING

I am restarting this blog because of COVID19.  I didn’t have it but started quarantining in mid-March like most people.

But even though parts of my state are re-opened along with some businesses, I still remain at home most of the time.

I am on another break from my MSW program which I did start, but needed to take some time off for some family situations before the pandemic.

During the first few weeks of the pandemic, I tried hard to remain in my class since it was virtual but it was too hard trying to stockpile food and supplies and commit 20+hours a week to learning.

My professors are supportive and I know it was the right decision because I couldn’t force myself to learn something new and retain information.

Since I’ve entered stage 4 kidney disease I have more side effects and balance issues in particular.

I’ve fought off digestive issues and disordered eating and have been keeping a fever diary to see if there’s a pattern to many low-grade fevers I’ve been having recently.

I’ve been struggling with the quarantine but my depression is finally lifting some with the change in season and longer days.  I’ve been trying to take strolls around the neighborhood when I feel up to it.

I was struggling with typing for the longest since I’ve been having some neuromuscular issues with my fingers and wrists (specialists are still trying to figure that out).

When it’s safe again I’ll meet with the Kidney transplant team to talk about evaluation since my lung team told me it’s time to get ready for evaluation testing.  (My kidneys are functioning around 20 percent right now thanks to LAM & TSC.) I found this out in late February.  The thought about another transplant gives me pause but I’ll always go through the process to at least see if there’s a donor match out there.

I’ve had a few friends volunteer to be tested for me which means a great deal. But with the pandemic, something tells me this will be a longer process than it would be otherwise.

I’ve had some really dark thoughts and moments,  lost a few more friends (not to the virus), but even though some days I don’t feel the best, I’m still grateful to be here.

It doesn’t mean I love everything that happens with transplant and I’m still chronically ill so I have to be careful. That doesn’t bother me.

What bothers me are people who don’t give a damn about me by societal standards. There are certain people who think I’m expendable.

Well, I’ve got news for those people. I’ve hacked healthcare for about 15-20 years now, and I have no intention of stopping or dying by anyone’s hands but my Creator.

If that means staying in quarantine longer because I follow the science, then so be it.

 

 

 

 

 

Long Time No Update

On December 2, I’ll be at 2 years post transplant.   In some ways it doesn’t seem it’s been that long, in other aspects it seems longer.

I had another blip in my lung function again but rebounded again.  I guess this is just an annual dip due to weather changes.  Which I’m not really surprised by.  I’ve always had sensitivity to changes in season.

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Passed The Year & A Half Mark

It’s been awhile since my last update.  In April, I had a procedure that kept me overnight & was my first surgery after transplant.  I have one more procedure after Labor Day, hoping this is the last of it for a good stretch.  This is the flare up of my TSC which usually acts up after the LAM settles down.

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When Other Medical Teams Fail Their Transplant Patients

I haven’t posted a personal update in a minute.   Part of it is because I’m extremely worn & frustrated & I don’t want that to bleed out and be perceived as whiny.  I know it couldn’t be farther from the truth & it’s not, but still this is what my head tells me sometimes.

Even though I constantly tell other friends with transplants who feel similarly that they are doing anything but.

While rather lengthy this update encapsulates a few months of frustrating experiences which I felt important to share with others.

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Review/Beta Testing: MySpiroo

I signed on to be a beta tester for this device a few weeks ago, maybe it’s a month or more now.  (Things have been kind of a whirlwind).  I was excited when I received the package with the Myspiroo because it’s a smart phone spirometer, which I have been hoping for even before I was transplanted.

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