I left social media recently due to some shaming & bullying. It was just too negative overall lately. Even with articles that I used to enjoy reading & some pages it just seemed there was a negative feel to it & that any post or article anyone bothered to put up, someone had an issue with.
It wasn’t just the election, but that definitely made it worse.
I just decided to disconnect & I’m glad. It’s somewhat of a detox still.
I had a somewhat negative response to an older blog post today, I deflected it much better than had that come a couple of days ago. I was able to chalk it up to random invalidation of my feelings, judginess, & ignorance. I can live with that & tune it out. (I just can’t fight it on multiple fronts like I had been. That’s too taxing these days & I don’t have energy to waste.)
I’m also starting to feel better (getting over whatever this crap was that had been going around & I had the last few weeks).
I was able to go out to the library today & for a change of pace hand wrote some of my novel. I managed about 500 words of that, but it was an important back story I know I needed to write but wasn’t quite sure where I’d work it into yet.
Now, it’s out & written. I can insert it when it feels right. I think it also did me some good to get a change of scenery & environment to write in. So that brief outing was a good thing. Not enough to wear me out, but allowed me some room to make some more headway.
I’m a little behind on my novel days wise, but I still need less than 1800 words per day on average to finish on time (which is what I’m aiming for).
I’m hoping to do a bit more on Sunday & this week to catch up. I do like how this is coming along & shaping up.
It’s been nice to have fun writing again whereas I was so blocked this past summer that nothing came out & what little actually did was crap.
With all my stress the past few weeks, it’s also fun to see some lighter moments come out of my writing, too.
I’ve also been catching up on a few other series that I used to watch to distract myself.
I’m already sleeping better.
I know I made the right decision & even if my blog readership drops off temporarily, from going off the grid of the net, it’s worth the break to not have the stress.
I know I’ll miss certain people but I can come back after a month or after the holidays & be OK with it.
I just feel my life is already benefitting from this detox to a certain extent & that was the whole point. I’m not missing it that much yet, either.
The final straw for me was people who take an anti-bullying stance publicly & have been bullied actually doing the bullying & shaming. Along with people with my rare illnesses deciding to cause fur fights over articles they clearly didn’t read that I posted.
I can’t get down with that.
I also don’t want to be stressed every time I sign on because someone’s looking to start a flame war with me or one of my friends every time we post an article or a status.
Time for some other things …some good energy to offset the negative.