I often talk about pragmatism & realism in the face of being critically ill. I know even with my strong will, there’s the potential for post transplant complications beyond my control to intervene & take hold & cut my life short.
This doesn’t mean I go around thinking about death all the time.
(I’m not afraid to talk about it either.)
But I must consider the fact of my mortality now, period. Especially in the wake of what I’m facing.